Working

Now, don't get me wrong, I am very grateful that at 63 I have a job. I say this because every time I post something on Facebook about having a frustrating day at work I get comments from people saying "well at least you have a job" or something to that effective.  So yes I'm glad have a job.  But that being said, I  wish I didn't have to work.

Lately, I have come to realize that I don't really want to go to work everyday.  What's getting me down is that I must go to work everyday because I was not smart enough to save enough to retire early.  I'm a bit tired of the drama of working in an office.  Of having to always have everything one does approved by someone else.  Of not really being valued or appreciated or acknowledged for doing a good job.  Having my expertise questioned - after all I have been a career counselor for 20 years.  I make it a point to keep current in my field.  Last year, I completed a career specialist training program.

I miss working with college students.  There's something special about being on a college campus but I fear that I'm considered a bit too old to relate to college students.  Now I am really old enough to be their mother!  That path is most likely closed to me now.  Makes me very sad.

Too bad I'm not brave enough to start my own career counseling business.  I need the security of a consistent paycheck and employer paid health insurance at least until I'm 65.

What would I do if I had more time?  Spend it with Kaylee, volunteer, travel, play golf, so many possibilities.

Darn, why didn't I have a rich relative?  I don't need much, about as much as I make right now would be nice - on a yearly basis.

Oh well, off to work again tomorrow.